A bad day.

Smh. So today was a bad day. Since the moment I woke up chores have been piled on me and piled on me. I just finally got the chance to sit down after 5 and a half hours of non stop commands. 

Frankly I hate the fact children are their parents slaves until their 18. Its completely stupid.

I don't even know what to say.

All  I know is I have no actual person who is going to want to hear about my problems, and since I'm trying to maintain stable relationships with all my friends I wont test the waters.

Right now I really just wanna nap.

~Ginger

Anxious for nothing

So I'm sitting here, my friends are all either busy, or I don't want to bother them. My boyfriend has given me no reason to feel this way, but my anxiety is telling me ask if you made him mad, you make everyone mad meanwhile the other half of me, is saying you're just going to annoy him, he doesn't care enough to be mad at you. He's indifferent. And so I'm sitting here anxious, on the verge of a panic attack, debating myself on whether or not to text him. At the same time I'm thinking I'll just text my best friend, he probably wont mind but for some reason I feel like I'll just be annoying him too. So I'm just sitting here, my anxiety rising, and I have no idea what to do, part of me wants to just say Hey, my anxiety is acting up right now, you too busy to talk? But my anxiety is saying Tmi, he doesn't want to know, neither of them do. They wont care. You'll just be bothering them with more of your stupid problems. I'm literally on the verge of tears, and for what? Because they seemed busy last I texted them? What kind of an excuse is that for me to react this way. People get busy. By all rational thought I should just text them in a few hours once they probably wont be busy, why cant my anxiety handle that answer? JEEZ. Why cant I  handle that answer.

~Ginger